Archive for May, 2009
This blog was originally posted on MySpace on May 29, 2009
This blog will start out small, because I have to get ready for work, but will grow throughout the day when I have more time.
Cheers: tp Kaili at Arthouse for signing me yesterday. Athouse is the premiere talent agency for commercials and film in Portland! I’m so excited.
Cheers: to Option Model Management (OMM) for signing me to their modeiling agency yesterday. I am also very excited to work with them. They have requested my hair be darker, so those of you who liked my hair darker are getting your wish!
Cheers: to the judges at the Oregonian who have chosen one of my captions for he finals in the latest Jack Ohman cartoon caption contest. I was tied with the front runner when I went to sleep and woke up 17 votes behind! Final tally was 99 to 139 I think. My competition posted 40 votes in the last few minutes. Hmmm. I’m thinking some software was involved.
Jeers: to the person who won the caption contest, only because he spelled amendment wrong! And, check out the note from the editors of the Oregonian (below). I guess they noticed the fact the guy posted 40 votes in the last 30 minutes. So, nobody won the cartoon.
“The voting for Contest 34 was unusually heavy and had some spikes in
the tally that had us wondering if there may have been some
Chicago-style shenanigans going on ( vote early and vote often), the”
vote often” part in particular. This contest should be fun so let’s
keep it light, entertaining and fair. Thanks.”
Jeers: to my ex husband who called and berated me for 20 minutes this morning and accused me of being an absent parent. As my friends know this is complete and utter BS.
Cheers: to my friend Jack Ohman who just got back from Washington, D.C., where he was hanging out with Ethel Kennedy and accepting the RFK Journalism Award for cartooning.
Cheers: to my kids and their friends who made roller skating at Oaks Park so much fun yesterday!
This blog was originally published on MySpace on May 21, 2009
I went for my bi-annual checkup with my dermatologist today, and when I left she handed me a piece of paper with the information on it about my most recent malignant melanoma and said, “You had a malignant melanoma in 2004. Just want to remind you of all the things you need to continue to do.”
Was she really saying what I thought she was saying? I quickly did the math in my head.
I have been cancer-free for five years.
At first I had no reaction whatsoever. It was like someone
had just said, “Have a nice day.” Then I walked to my car, took a deep breath
and cried. I didn’t feel it coming. I cried all the way to work.
I had no idea how buried my fear was until someone gave me permission to let it go.
The truth is you never completely let go of that fear once you have had cancer, because you know it’s always lurking. My cells already know how to mutate into deadly malignant melanoma. That much I know. So I have to respect that. They could choose to go rogue again at any moment.
We are mortal. Don’t forget that. Live and love while you can.
My cancer story: I am a Cancer Suvivor